Diary Room

This would’ve all been fine if Nina didn’t want to DISCUSS WITH MAMA

i think my issues in these games are my voice is way too powerful and that makes me a threat near the end of the game. i could see somebody like aimee dominating the f2 because she isn’t seen as such a threat

i sooooooo just fucked up my game and i’m not sure how to recover that

i did however even the sides so that one side is actually BANDED TOGETHER and not going after each other as the rest are all aligned

i am always so embarrassed by this diary room because this is twice now where i’ve fucked up something by not reading fully KSJDJDJD

also i feel like idr talk in here much bc i talk in my twit dr so much now

i’m changing the access to my notes doc. i asked in my twit dr, but cal do u still want access to it? i’ll just add u to the doc as a viewer

I don't mind, I don't look at it so I wont be offended LMAO

UGH THESE UGLY BITCHES

jesus, i really do suck at these things this season i don’t even know why

anyways, updates for myself incase i make the f2

- i purposely stirred the pot more during this nom ceremony
- my message regarding anyone being directly told it was shoto was for christine to expose mark

as for this week, shoto i believe will be leaving. this is good for me as he tried calling my ass out. he’s RIGHT and that’s the problem!!! his message about me winning in our one on one made me laugh too i’m just hoping he doesn’t go out exposing anything because he feels like the type to do it. we’re getting to the point now where eviction speeches will also be exposing players. that’s a fucking issue for me atm!

also, i’m going to need christine to leave sooner rather than later. she knows wayyyy too much about my game. i mean, way too fucking much

there are a lot of people currently playing the middle. i don’t know if it’s on purpose or not. all i know is that there are two very small sides and then those people in the middle who are like not very trusted, but not looked at as a target because there’s bigger fish to fry

my issue is i’m both. i’m in the middle, but also trusted by both sides. hell, i’m in an alliance called the outsiders. IM NOT EVEN A FUCKING OUTSIDER.. i’ve played these original votes so fucking well too. god i am just really scared for the future as i believe i will be a backdoor target for somebody when the jury phase hits

this is so fucking nerve wracking bc i fucked my game over so damn hard

Reminder for Sofia Carson: Send me the screenshots of your boss lady person accidentally sending you screenshots of her talking shit on you

this phase of the game is going to go terribly for me

i only know of two current powers in this game and that’s nina’s double vote and my vote nullifier

I feel like I am going to be having a lot of issues moving forward

- I don’t talk to Lois one on one
- Wylie talks to me last out of all the girls
- Mark and I don’t really talk one on one anymore
- I will be looked at before Aimee despite her actually being in a better position than me and not looked at nearly as much
- Christine calls me her #1 but I believe her #1 is Aimee
- Aimee refers to me as her #1 but idk if that’s true
- Danny refers to me as his #1
- Mama refers to me as her #1
- Loid refers to me as his #1
- Nina I think bc of her talking to me regarding votes and all that refers to me as her #1, but it could be #2
- Beatrix, who I nominated very early on in the game, is still here
- I still have like 4ish active alliances.. or 5.. or 6.. I am not counting as I type this, but it’s a pretty decent amount
- I think that at some point, I will be entirely blown up on and won’t make it to the final 2
- My main fear is being backdoored and everyone agreeing to send my ass home

As for that last point.. it is final 11. That means 8 votes. Let’s assume I got placed on the block next to like Christine

If nobody except Loid. Mama, Danny, and Nina are willing to save me, I’d still need two votes. Only way to get that would be to using my nullifier and Nina using her double vote

Like some of the girls refer to me as their #1.. but overall? The guys side is better for my game in who will keep me. I feel like the girls side would be easier to beat in the end, but that the guys are what could get me to the end